If you have read my other posts or if you know me in person, you might think and feel that I am anything but normal.
I can be intense, hard to handle when I get angry, messing around if I am in weird mood, happy to extremes when I have a reason to celebrate.
I am crying when I am angry, sad, happy, frustrated, irritated, disappointed. I am crying at movies, romcoms, news (that’s why I stopped watching the news altogether).
I can be quite blunt and tell you what I feel to your face but I can also hug you if you need it. I am someone that leaves everything aside to run and help a friend in need but I can also cut someone off without notice if I feel that I am being taken advantage of.
I am interested in deep, spiritual stuff. I love finding and talking to people that have the some passion. But sometimes, I can get into conversations with people that have no connection whatsoever with this area of life. People that might be atheists, in between, people that are so focused on their careers that literally have no time to look after their souls, people that maybe don’t know what to expect and out of fear they put people in boxes.
I have been labeled me as weird, zen, always calm no matter what, vegetarian yogi, hippie, living in my own bubble.
At the beginning, I admit that I used to get defensive and I was trying to prove myself to people that were making fun of me. And now realise that it was because maybe a part of me wasn’t fully accepting that I am not like everyone else. I wasn’t accepting my weirdness and I wasn’t owning it.
For you to get an idea of how long it took me to get here, let me tell you. It took me more than 8 long years to accept who I am.
It took me this long to accept that other people are not on the same path as me and I don’t need to prove to anyone that my path is better than theirs. It is simply my path, my path is not necessarily better, it’s just different. It was about time to embrace myself with the good and the bad.
It was about time to embrace my journey and share what I have learned because man, I have learned so much in these years!
Sometimes you need someone from outside to tell you that it’s time to stop your bulshit and get your ass to work. And I had a few people for which I am deeply grateful in my journey that without knowing, they helped me by telling me that I should stop expecting perfection.
They told me that have a lot of knowledge already and it is time to stop looking outside for what is already inside me.
A small step is better than no step.
And this is what I tell you now as well: stop waiting for perfection. Make a small step in your direction. Be yourself. Embrace your weirdness. Don’t give a f*** about what people think about you.
Don’t try to prove yourself to the wrong people. You don’t have to work so hard to be accepted because when you embrace your true version of yourself, your own crowd will come to you with no effort.
The only person you can change is you!
Love and light,